Hi Nick - I'd hate for you to see my click in those thousands of clicks and think that you were somehow being helpful. I *was* looking for an answer, but the question was just "is Nick dead yet?" I was curious to see if the women you inflict yourself on were finally safe from your awful, abusive, gaslighting, sociopathic, self-pitying, self-obsessed existence. You know one day you'll be caught out and exposed for who you really are. Maybe that's when you'll actually kill yourself, instead of just pretending you're going to.